[ Wynteria's ]

Since I started my training at Penang, I have almost a non-existent life.

Wake Up - Work - Work - Lunch - Work  - Work - Back - Eat - Sleep.

My weight is now 62KG.

This cant go on!

I dont want to eat dinner at all but his parents kept forcing me to eat..

I dont want to do many things but I am forced to…

There are so many relatives visiting… which is so freaking boring. Old people reminising their old times which I pratically have no idea about it at all! And all I had to do was sit there and listen & smiling like an idiot.. Im always the young one there, with my bf. His family is so “happening” all the time… Relatives SO MANY & SO CLOSE.

The past few months was all hectic and soul draining. Relatives from both of his parents’ side came and go. CHILDREN EVERYWHERE!!!!! CHILDREN!!! 1 month was his mother’s side family gathering for the WHOLE MONTH because the youngest sister from US came down.. the month after that, his father’s side gathering….. mainly because his oldest aunty’s husband (which is 80 years old) was sick….

Only these few days things has quieted down…

I miss my family SO MUCH…. I miss my KL life… I miss MALLS!!!!! I miss my Mum………. I planned to go back a few times but things always comes up and cancelled my plan. His mother was like making all sorts of plan preventing me to go back…………………. I’m tired of it……….

No doubt I’m happy living there…… but I miss MY LIFE also…. MY LIFE that I. CONTROL over it. My LIFE that I CAN. do whatever I want. MY LIFE. that I used to have….

I MISS MY FRIENDS…..

I MISS MY UNI LIFE.

The days where I had to cram for exams and dragged to classes doesnt seem that bad now….

I dont want to live together with his parents… but he doesnt want to move out. I dont want a life that is controlled by his Mother, who pokes into OUR LIFE. Always telling me what to do. I KNOW WHAT TO DO!

Family…………………………………………………….

What will it be if I move my life back to KL?

Will it be better or worse?

Will I be able to cope it?

I feel that I should be with my family now before I dont have the chance to do so……………………………