[ Wynteria's ]

4 dreadful months is finally ending in 12 days. Whenever people asked how’s ur internship? How’s Penang? The word “SUFFERING” will appear in my head. Webture is a shithole. Scam. CEO that smokes in the office.. I’m dying everyday with potential lung cancer.. stingy company.. heavy workloads… The Team Leader who always sleeps and talk crap during office hours and produce NOTHING.. and pass his works around, ESPECIALLY TO ME. CTO who always go into CEO’s room to chit-chat and God knows what kind of “business” they doing in there… Clients who come in look like uneducated barbarians…

I did everything from programming to designing and updating the lame websites with lame promos.. The whole place like like a Slave Mill…. No YM or surfing allowed. How am I suppose to release stress to produce more quality work?

My decision to come here, was… a BIG MISTAKE.

The little bit of joy that I received, was not enough to compensate the sufferings I get from Webture. I’m going back to KL for good. Although I will miss my dear very much… but its a decision that I must make. Hopefully… it’s not a wrong one..

I’m tired of being a “good girl”… having to treat his parents nicely. I’m not brought up in a way that I have to say good morning to my parents and knows how to use the cutlery. There are so many chores in their house… from folding underwears to washing & wiping dishes. I never wipe dishes! What’s the point of the work when they will dry the next day?

And they have SO MANY RELATIVES from both side of the parents…. every now and then, there will be a gathering… and all the old people will be chatting away reminiscing their old times. I’ll be a smiling idiot sitting there bored to nothingness. I need a break.

I dont even want to take my driving license but she go and arranged it for me… now im broke like crap… Waking up at 6.30am everyday to go to work. Its killing me.

Fuck Webture. Fuck Penang. I hate the motorcycles so much.

hmm.. feel like posting something today…

Few days back I started to play League of Legends, a variation of DotA. It created by the original DotA creator, Guinsoo… I’m HOOKEd to this game cuz its much easier to play than DotA.. I guess more female will be playing this game cuz its CUTE too XD

I started with Annie - The Dark Child and have been using her in all my games so far… And the best thing for me is that they have recommended items for the choosen characters, so I just follow them and buy the items XD

Other than that… I’ve been trying every week to win The Star’s Power of 9 contest…. I’ve been submitting entries since Week 2 but till now, I didnt even get to win a GSC Cinema Tickets..

1 more month till my internshit ends… working for such soul-sucking energy-draining company is S.H.I.T. Does anybody even understand what I’m going thorugh?? Every employee here hates it here. Why are they even staying? Probably that they are offered good money.

For interns? Work like a fucking slave.

bla bla bla…

Why am i even writting this?

Since I started my training at Penang, I have almost a non-existent life.

Wake Up - Work - Work - Lunch - Work  - Work - Back - Eat - Sleep.

My weight is now 62KG.

This cant go on!

I dont want to eat dinner at all but his parents kept forcing me to eat..

I dont want to do many things but I am forced to…

There are so many relatives visiting… which is so freaking boring. Old people reminising their old times which I pratically have no idea about it at all! And all I had to do was sit there and listen & smiling like an idiot.. Im always the young one there, with my bf. His family is so “happening” all the time… Relatives SO MANY & SO CLOSE.

The past few months was all hectic and soul draining. Relatives from both of his parents’ side came and go. CHILDREN EVERYWHERE!!!!! CHILDREN!!! 1 month was his mother’s side family gathering for the WHOLE MONTH because the youngest sister from US came down.. the month after that, his father’s side gathering….. mainly because his oldest aunty’s husband (which is 80 years old) was sick….

Only these few days things has quieted down…

I miss my family SO MUCH…. I miss my KL life… I miss MALLS!!!!! I miss my Mum………. I planned to go back a few times but things always comes up and cancelled my plan. His mother was like making all sorts of plan preventing me to go back…………………. I’m tired of it……….

No doubt I’m happy living there…… but I miss MY LIFE also…. MY LIFE that I. CONTROL over it. My LIFE that I CAN. do whatever I want. MY LIFE. that I used to have….

I MISS MY FRIENDS…..

I MISS MY UNI LIFE.

The days where I had to cram for exams and dragged to classes doesnt seem that bad now….

I dont want to live together with his parents… but he doesnt want to move out. I dont want a life that is controlled by his Mother, who pokes into OUR LIFE. Always telling me what to do. I KNOW WHAT TO DO!

Family…………………………………………………….

What will it be if I move my life back to KL?

Will it be better or worse?

Will I be able to cope it?

I feel that I should be with my family now before I dont have the chance to do so……………………………

1 week has passed since I started my training at Penang. On the 5th day (Friday) of work, I fell sick. Fever + Sore throat + Body Ache + bla bla bla…. cough… I’m burned out. Occasionally, I’ll have diarrhea cuz Penang’s food is always not that clean……

Life is really tough here… having no driving license just make everything worst. Its so hard to get around in Penang with the limited public transports. I’m so used to LRT, ERL and Monorail that I didnt realize the importance of having a driving license. Getting to my training place is a bitch’s life. I had to spend 2 hours doing nothing…… Ara’s parents have a car (Kenari) for me to drive, auto sumore…. but I couldnt drive it….

At this point, I’ve begin to wonder……. was my decision a mistake? I felt that I’ve made a mistake….. In the beginning all I could thought of was I couldnt be separated from him. I wouldnt be able to bear it… and I do not like being at home cuz my big bro’s and his bitch were always there. I only found out recently that they have “sorta” moved out from my house….If only I knew earlier.. Besides, my younger bro has already taken over my room.. I felt that I didnt belong to there anymore. but…. nothing is better than my own home… I like it here.. but I miss my own parents…. Although they might not treat me as good as caring as Ara’s parents, but…… I guess they have their own way of loving me….

And, Penang motorists are CRAZY!!!! I really hate the motorists here. They drove like they are the kings of road! I really really hate them to the deepest hell… There are so many of them and drive so fast… ARrrgggGhhh!!!

My training place is so shitty that I was at the verge of dropping it. Its really hard there. Supervisor is an ass. Fuck Him. Hope you die bastard! I emailed my MMU Supervisor and they said they couldnt do anything about it…… hopeless MMU. EAT SHIT!!! Only know how to collect our money~!!!

haihz…. life………………………………………….. i fail terribly in this subject….