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Working life is so hard…..
To earn that little money for living… not easy…

I feel like resigning from my current job… although pay is higher a bit than average fresh grad.. but suffer like shit…. stressful… work load.. piling high like mountain.

For that measly RM2.2K… (after EPF deduction) I had to go through all these stress. Where’s the meaning to work?

I’d rather… work in a small cafeteria… earn little bit just enough to sustain a simple life… than working like a dog for corporates..

Now I think about it… I had joined the rat race.. studying… for degree to get a better job, get a better pay… and work hard for the corporate who earn big money while we the employees suffer. Slaving our days for them. Just for three meals.

I’m thinking… of…. going to live in a countryside.. live a simple life in a small little cottage hut…. New Zealand? I need to do something to get out of this rat race life.. I need to take over my life, change my life. Get out of this rat race…

I would like to apologize… to everyone in my life.. whom I’ve failed to appreciate…….. whom i’ve disappointed… whom i’ve hurt………….. whom i’ve ran away from……..

my deepest, apology….

Somewhere in between my life, I’ve forgotten to grow up….

Trapped in time…

Ever since I came back KL, I couldnt decide where to settle down. Penang? or KL? I felt that I had to stay back in KL to help my family out.. help my mum out… but.. after what I experienced today. I’ve decided to go to Penang. I’ve realized and reminded why I left the house and didnt want to go back in the 1st place. Being absent from the house too long, I’ve forgotten how shitty my family had became.

I will be where my heart wants to be….. with people that cherish & appreciate my presence. I love my mum, but… its unbearable to see what my family have become. Bye ma……

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Today officially marks the day where I was free from the clutch of Webtu*e. Today is the day I was no longer a student.

Webtu*e is closing down. Endless hapiness. I was thinking since its down.. should I take over their clients?? lol… They have a lot of clients from Penang.. dont know what they got themselves into.. and became like this.

So many things I wanna do now… time to get back into business…? All the things I wanna do requires money =.=” Money ahhhh……. why do you hate me so much~~

Had a small gathering with friends today.. feels like yesterday when we all were studying and hanging out.. Too bad cant see Hairy Face lol.. hope to have another gathering soon..

4 dreadful months is finally ending in 12 days. Whenever people asked how’s ur internship? How’s Penang? The word “SUFFERING” will appear in my head. Webture is a shithole. Scam. CEO that smokes in the office.. I’m dying everyday with potential lung cancer.. stingy company.. heavy workloads… The Team Leader who always sleeps and talk crap during office hours and produce NOTHING.. and pass his works around, ESPECIALLY TO ME. CTO who always go into CEO’s room to chit-chat and God knows what kind of “business” they doing in there… Clients who come in look like uneducated barbarians…

I did everything from programming to designing and updating the lame websites with lame promos.. The whole place like like a Slave Mill…. No YM or surfing allowed. How am I suppose to release stress to produce more quality work?

My decision to come here, was… a BIG MISTAKE.

The little bit of joy that I received, was not enough to compensate the sufferings I get from Webture. I’m going back to KL for good. Although I will miss my dear very much… but its a decision that I must make. Hopefully… it’s not a wrong one..

I’m tired of being a “good girl”… having to treat his parents nicely. I’m not brought up in a way that I have to say good morning to my parents and knows how to use the cutlery. There are so many chores in their house… from folding underwears to washing & wiping dishes. I never wipe dishes! What’s the point of the work when they will dry the next day?

And they have SO MANY RELATIVES from both side of the parents…. every now and then, there will be a gathering… and all the old people will be chatting away reminiscing their old times. I’ll be a smiling idiot sitting there bored to nothingness. I need a break.

I dont even want to take my driving license but she go and arranged it for me… now im broke like crap… Waking up at 6.30am everyday to go to work. Its killing me.

Fuck Webture. Fuck Penang. I hate the motorcycles so much.